Part 2. Venus Yoga Workshop
‘My name is Inna. Im here to follow my heart and be open to whatever the universe prepared for me. What challenging to me is dealing with judgment as a strong and independent woman. I hate being judged this way. I work hard to show that im not strong. The word 'strong' put me as invicible person so that people neglected my emotional and personal needs. My work as activist and counselor also a big challenge that give joys.’
That's my introduction at the first session of venus yoga. We all sitting in a circle in a colourful living room of Christine Wright. 8 goddesses will explore and share their spirituality. I’m the only girl from Indonesia, we are all come from many different countries which makes me happy to know that women wherever they come from are the same and connected to each other.
Shivani,our guru will guide us thru a full day workshop. She's not only workin with our physical needs, she also put attention to our emotional needs and feminity to improve our wellnessa as a beings.
'So you dont like the word 'strong', how if we use the word 'vulnerable', do you think ok?' She ask.
I nodded.
'When my guru rub my hair last nite,i start to cry. I've just realized that i really miss and needed the warm feeling and compassion. I dont remember when the last time i feel those feeling. Im busy giving love and sharing compassion with others, make sure that my clients have enough support and treatment while i dont let myself receive love and compassion. I feel lonely inside. I want people ask how i'am, how i'am doing and how i feel' i continued
'hmm,so what you need at the moment is to receive' she replied.
I nodded and my tears flows into my cheek. The goddesses look at me with their warm eyes.
*****
It such a wonderful moment to be with 7 goddesses in the Venus Yoga Workshop. Shivani guide us thru yoga, meditation, sharing and dancing to heal our heart, to meet our true-self and feminity.
There’s one game where shivani put a slayer in the floor and everyone of us walk to find it with eye closed. I stop a few inch away from the layer. Everyone have two chances to walk and get the slayer. Before the second one, shivani take us into the room and whispering this lines :
‘The key is trust. when you feel the trust that the universe will support you, then you start walkin.`
I took me so long to feel the trust before walkin and get the slayer. When I stop and open my eyes, the slayer even far more than the first one.
‘What you feel about this related to your life? You can write it down on your note.’ Shivani ask.
To be true, its hard for me to feel the trust, I tried to but as Shivani said ‘Try and Feel’ is different. We can not try to trust, we feel it. It took me so long before I walk because I can not feel the trust. Related to real life, I still feel the hurts of being neglected. I still feel the hurts when my friends and colleagues not there when I really needed them, so how could I trust that the universe will support me?
This is just a part of Venus Yoga, we had even more challenging and fun time. Sometimes we laugh, sometimes we cry, sometimes we dance. All the goddesses share their warmth and compassion.
My favorit session is the dance session, I feel sexy and being joy with my body. All the goddesses express them selves thru the dance, touching their body like there’s no else body as beauty as the body belong to them. When we connect with the body, we can feel the power of sensuality light out from the body, with bright eyes and big smile. We celebrate our feminity and sexuality.
I’m glad that finally I went to the workshop. It’s not cheap for me, a full day workshop cost a week of my budget but I feel its worthed enough. After 2 weeks changing classes and tryin many kind of Yoga, I finally found Yoga that fit into my needs, my personality, even fit into my works. When I came back to jogja, I want to share this with my lovely friends, wishing them to experienced the same deep feeling and joy like we all have at this moments.
‘My name is Inna. Im here to follow my heart and be open to whatever the universe prepared for me. What challenging to me is dealing with judgment as a strong and independent woman. I hate being judged this way. I work hard to show that im not strong. The word 'strong' put me as invicible person so that people neglected my emotional and personal needs. My work as activist and counselor also a big challenge that give joys.’
That's my introduction at the first session of venus yoga. We all sitting in a circle in a colourful living room of Christine Wright. 8 goddesses will explore and share their spirituality. I’m the only girl from Indonesia, we are all come from many different countries which makes me happy to know that women wherever they come from are the same and connected to each other.
Shivani,our guru will guide us thru a full day workshop. She's not only workin with our physical needs, she also put attention to our emotional needs and feminity to improve our wellnessa as a beings.
'So you dont like the word 'strong', how if we use the word 'vulnerable', do you think ok?' She ask.
I nodded.
'When my guru rub my hair last nite,i start to cry. I've just realized that i really miss and needed the warm feeling and compassion. I dont remember when the last time i feel those feeling. Im busy giving love and sharing compassion with others, make sure that my clients have enough support and treatment while i dont let myself receive love and compassion. I feel lonely inside. I want people ask how i'am, how i'am doing and how i feel' i continued
'hmm,so what you need at the moment is to receive' she replied.
I nodded and my tears flows into my cheek. The goddesses look at me with their warm eyes.
*****
It such a wonderful moment to be with 7 goddesses in the Venus Yoga Workshop. Shivani guide us thru yoga, meditation, sharing and dancing to heal our heart, to meet our true-self and feminity.
There’s one game where shivani put a slayer in the floor and everyone of us walk to find it with eye closed. I stop a few inch away from the layer. Everyone have two chances to walk and get the slayer. Before the second one, shivani take us into the room and whispering this lines :
‘The key is trust. when you feel the trust that the universe will support you, then you start walkin.`
I took me so long to feel the trust before walkin and get the slayer. When I stop and open my eyes, the slayer even far more than the first one.
‘What you feel about this related to your life? You can write it down on your note.’ Shivani ask.
To be true, its hard for me to feel the trust, I tried to but as Shivani said ‘Try and Feel’ is different. We can not try to trust, we feel it. It took me so long before I walk because I can not feel the trust. Related to real life, I still feel the hurts of being neglected. I still feel the hurts when my friends and colleagues not there when I really needed them, so how could I trust that the universe will support me?
This is just a part of Venus Yoga, we had even more challenging and fun time. Sometimes we laugh, sometimes we cry, sometimes we dance. All the goddesses share their warmth and compassion.
My favorit session is the dance session, I feel sexy and being joy with my body. All the goddesses express them selves thru the dance, touching their body like there’s no else body as beauty as the body belong to them. When we connect with the body, we can feel the power of sensuality light out from the body, with bright eyes and big smile. We celebrate our feminity and sexuality.
I’m glad that finally I went to the workshop. It’s not cheap for me, a full day workshop cost a week of my budget but I feel its worthed enough. After 2 weeks changing classes and tryin many kind of Yoga, I finally found Yoga that fit into my needs, my personality, even fit into my works. When I came back to jogja, I want to share this with my lovely friends, wishing them to experienced the same deep feeling and joy like we all have at this moments.
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