Guilty feelin of a busy minded girl

I woke up this morning and got a text from a friend, he’s leaving jogja already and on the way to senegal for his girl friend.

I suddenly realize that i skipped so many ‘good bye’ and ‘a hug’ for those good friend who leaving jogja. Those people with whom i share laugh and good time together. Those people i met on weekend party to let go off my busy mind. Those people who sing, dance and drink beer together without giving any burden.

It’s nearly a year i’m working too much and not giving enough love and accomplishment to myself. I’m too arrogant to think that i could change the world with my ideas and works but in the same time also ignorance to my own body and soul, to my family and friends.

I’m too selfish to think that people will understand while i dont have enough time for them coz i’m doing such an important work. I’m too stupid to understand that i need them more than i need this work.

In the last few years i met so many good people, spent good time together, and in the end they must leave indonesia. I tought it was easy to let go, but it’s not. And the worst feeling is because i did'nt invest much time to share and listen to them.

I’ve made a mistake and i admit it.

I hope i won’t do the same mistake in the future. I have to keep in mind that being with friends and listen more to them is such a healing for my soul.